I have to say, I was a LITTLE embarrassed when I woke up this morning (ish), the way you might be after you got drunk and said something super vulnerable to your boyfriend and you sort of wish you hadn’t? Yeah.
To all of the readers who emailed me, thank you. Seriously. The truth is, I’m a really happy person, a solid 90% of the time. I think that comes across. I’m a normal person, though, so that also has its ups and downs - which are exacerbated by the judgments of people who don’t know me, don’t care to know me, and probably never will.
So the decision I’ve made - subject to change, just like every other decision I’ve ever made - is to more or less put those people on mute. I looked one last time at the site I referred to, because I was sent an email that the responses to my video would “hearten” me. Well, they didn’t. They were just as cruel as I’ve ever seen and - fuck, I’ll say it - evil. They were EVIL. If that’s how they react to me being as honest as I can be, then I’m done with them, as a group.
This website is for fun. DON’T TAKE IT SO SERIOUSLY. It isn’t all of me. It isn’t everything I do, everyone I see, every thought I have. I thought I would be able to record everything, and I can’t. It’s not physically possible. So these are snippits, glimpses. Ultimately it comes down to this: if you enjoy it, fantastic. If you don’t, I’m sorry I haven’t made you happy. I like making people happy. I wish I could make everyone happy. But - shocker! - I can’t.
And that’s just how it is.
Now, if you’ll excuse me, this lady has to go to the gym.
PS. I *will* continue those videos - because I liked doing them.
PPS. To the one reader who said I “faked” needing glasses? HAHAHAHA oh lord. I wish! I’m legally blind, actually. -12 in one eye, -11 in the other. So. No. Those were my real glasses. :)
Jackles, some advice from The Evils:
Get a sleeping pill. Seriously. Lack of sleep always makes people feel their problems are much bigger than they are, and always prompts them to behave in ways that end up being embarrassing. We are simply people -- Tumblr people, most of us -- who don't like the product you are selling, including the titty shots, the Blue Steel, the kissy faces, the invasions of other people's privacy, the rampant narcissism. You can either retool the product or ignore the complaints. If I were you, I'd get a sleeping pill prescription and ignore the complaints because you don't want to retool your product, you just want people to stop complaining about it.
Sleep well, Toodles, and same to you: DON'T TAKE IT SO SERIOUSLY!